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I'm finally back from the hospital. I wasn't there for long, honestly, I could have left on Thursday itself, I only have stitches and to be treated for shock, but I just didn't really want to leave Senri. It didn't feel fair. Not after he'd saved my life.
It's my fault he's in there. The car, some drunken driver who died on impact, it was heading for me. If I'd just moved out of the way and reacted instead of frozen... I've been shot at before, how did a car make me freeze up? It's irrational, I know, but I can't help but think that if I'd shut up shop faster, if I'd not frozen...Senri could still be talking.
He's in a stable condition, but in a coma. I don't....I just...
I feel like a failure. I've helped so many other people, but I can't even help my best friend.
It's my fault he's in there. The car, some drunken driver who died on impact, it was heading for me. If I'd just moved out of the way and reacted instead of frozen... I've been shot at before, how did a car make me freeze up? It's irrational, I know, but I can't help but think that if I'd shut up shop faster, if I'd not frozen...Senri could still be talking.
He's in a stable condition, but in a coma. I don't....I just...
I feel like a failure. I've helped so many other people, but I can't even help my best friend.